MissFlowr_MTL

NewLifeinMTL
2017-02-04 15:23:48 (UTC)

series of unfortunate events

i've always felt a special connection to the baudelaire children from a series of unfortunate events. not that i was in the same situation as they were being orphans but the part of being abused and having their needs ignored by their guardians and no one seeming to notice how miserable they are and if they ever try to speak up for themselves being shot down by everyone around them. . . . my life, having a father who was barely ever around because he was too busy fucking every woman who wasnt his wife and sniffing out every cent he could for pointless material possesions. who obviously wouldnt notice how miserable i was. a mother who has always been a bitter and narcissistic woman who seemed like a perfect mother from the outside but on the inside of the family dynamic she ignored my needs after i was sexually abused and instead used my fears and problems from the abuse to "train" me discouraging bad behavior by feeding my fears and ignoring good behavior. if i ever tried to voice my misery she would rant about how awful her life was completely invalidating me and then at the next opportunity embarrassing me in front of the family to get everyone on her side and show me she was in control. now with me 23 years old she is trying to be as awful as possible to me either to try and get me out or to break me down so much i dont feel confident enough to leave.




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