✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
Rock-a-bye Baby - Day 25
Dear Reader,
Something I kinda want to talk about that I didn't in my previous entry.
One of my biggest fears is dropping a baby. There's a baby in my life, and there's going to be another soon.
My baby cousin named Maria, accidentally rolled off my lap and onto the floor yesterday. Now, we were both on the floor.. but it still scared me. It honestly did. I'm trying to convince grandma to get foam baby mat pieces to put on the floor.
Something else that kinda bothered me was.. Maria tried getting to a little cabinet with a door to open it. I told he "No no" because it has phone books and stuff in it that'll fall out.
She got mad, hit me in the face, grabbed my hair and yanked down hard twice.
Her mom took her away, and got onto her.
Like, I know she's just a baby.. and I know she didn't know better.
It was just in that moment, while my head was down as she pulled my hair, and I couldn't do anything to stop it... I immediately started disconnecting?
It brought me back kinda.. like, it didn't make me feel like I was an adult woman anymore, it made me feel like a child again, my hair getting pulled again by another kid.
It didn't hurt.. it wasn't serious.
It just surprised me, and I don't know why it upset me so
much.
Sincerely,
Me
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