AMom

Reasons?
2017-01-18 05:19:33 (UTC)

Stress is wearing on me.

I can't get forward without being pulled back. I sometimes feel like an emotional yo-yo. The stress is wearing on me. It has caused Shingles. If you know about how shingles works to begin with, you would understand.
Stresses:
1) Family. I get severely stressed when my brother/wife/ niece visit. His wife is quite uppity. I stress about my relationship with my niece. As to whether I can talk to my 5 yr old niece. What to say/ not say. I just say very little when they visit. I don't interact with my niece too much. Try to keepy 8 yr old son toned down.

2) My son's father. Wants me, then doesn't want me. Back and forth. Main problem is he can't keep a job. I don't want to work myself to death. I have in the past and resented him for it.

3) Work. Every time I turn around there are changes that put my job in jeopardy.

4) Extended family. Waiting for my Godchildren's grandmother to die. I feel I can't be in C, C or It's life until she does. They are all over 21 and two have kids of their own. I just don't want V breathing down my neck.

At least I only have a mild case of shingles. It hurts "inside" more than any sores. I guess it's a nerve thing. I'll live. Just one more thing to add to the pile. 1- Diabetes, 2- HPB, 3-Cholesterol, 4- Factor 5, 5- shingles. Not to mention possibly not my parent's kid. Wrong blood type.




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