Martha

Martha
2016-12-31 22:47:04 (UTC)

Mixed Emotions

I am between decisions. Ed wants me to release Mike . I am attracted to the prospect of finding, of actually having someone new in my life. Mike has brought several points to my attention. Without me, he is dead. The thing that frightens me most is with me Mike may die especially; if the lump in his chest is cancer.

I am afraid that in a moment of anger I will act on my impulse to kill him. The trust between us was never strong now, that trust is completely dead. Mike betrayed me once to often. There is no forgiveness left. What I have left for Mike, is the endless prayer he will die. The emotions I once felt for him are dead, and buried.




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