Songbird System

Raven
2016-12-22 15:59:20 (UTC)

It is midnight and I'm completely awake

...Yeah, I'm not having a good week. Besides people telling me I should, I'm mentally breaking down. I need a rest dammit.

Today I spent the whole day Christmas shopping. The whole day. Probably because some of the stuff I made myself among with my sister...yeah, because it is almost Christmas. And I feel like shit.

I know something happened on Christmas somewhere in my past. Why? Because Charlotte really, really hates Christmas. Overemotional Charlotte spills the beans on everything a lot. And, even before then, there were all the times I freaked out while listening to Christmas music. Something happened. Or I'm overthinking this. The thing is that even though Charlotte is a bitch, she is more truthful than me. She speaks her mind and hates telling lies. So............

Anyways, completely changing the subject, lets talk about the DMV. Because I just did my first permit test. I missed by two questions. I'm like, okay, I did a lot of studying, that I'll never get the credit for anyways, but over 50% of people fail on their first time. I only got seven wrong, that's good. Then Morgan passed it...without studying...what the fuck. Okay, I might be a little jealous, but, fuck, I hate that Morgan always has to be the one that passes everything without trying. Hell, she complains about her C. Bitch, I still have a F in Psychology that I still spending time to make up. This has happened all of lives, she just doesn't understand why I can't get good grades. Dammit. And then I started feeling like the dumb one again...because you are the...STOP IT! But you are the d-STOP DAMMIT FUCK! Worthless, worthless-OH HELL NO, I'M NOT GOING THROUGH THAT SHIT AGAIN!

So, now I gotta study again and take it again. Hopefully this time I'll pass. :) In fact, I'm sure I will. It was only two questions that I missed. That's not a lot. It is like I had a B on the test. And that's a good grade but not good enough for a permit. Okay...fuck, it is dark in here. Even with a nightlight. Please tell me it is not going out...again...again...again. It happens a lot. Oh well, my computer has light for now. Just need to keep my anxiety under control. Just think about anime. Yes, think about Yuri on Ice. Oh my God, I love that show...fuck, Yuri and I both have anxiety. XD Join the anxiety club, where everybody is miserable. :P




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