Guavaincamo

Pen to Keyboard
2016-12-15 18:11:36 (UTC)

I can't afford the same opportunities

When it is someone else's idea, I support it.
When it is what someone else wants to do, I go with it.
When it is someone else's passion, I take interest in it.
I don't ask questions, I do it and I stay supportive of it even if my mind is telling me it's not going to work or it's dumb.
When I'm part of someone else's projects or plans I don't half-ass it.
When it is important to someone else it is important to me.
When someone else needs me I am there.
So why is it that nobody affords me the same opportunities?

When it is my idea, everyone ignores it.
When it is what I want to do, no one wants to do it.
When it is my passion, nobody takes interest in it.
When it comes down to my projects or plans, others half-ass ass it or chose not to participate in it.
When it is important to me, nobody makes it important to them.
When I need someone, who is there?
Nobody affords me the same opportunities.

I am so sick and fucking tired of when it is what someone else wants/plans/is passionate about that they can put in 100% and I also put in that same 100% but when it comes down to ME, they put in 2% at best. Continuously I have been let down by people half-assing or being disinterested in anything that pertains to what I like, plan or want to do.

THIS is why I work alone. THIS is why I am a solo flyer. THIS is why I trust NO ONE to do anything for me. I am better doing it alone. I will always be better off going at it alone. At least I support myself and I don't half-ass myself. At least I have the common fucking decency to do the job properly instead of only pretending to pertain interest and doing the job only part of the way. At least I don't have to repeat to myself a million times over. At least I don't put myself on the back burner and leave it until the very last second to where I have to pull teeth requesting to myself to get it done. At least I can take advantage of my own patience of needing something to be done at a certain point but it approaches the very last second and it still is not being done.

NOBODY will care for me like I do. NOBODY will be passionate about anything that I am passionate about. I will keep it all to myself. I will run everything. I am my own company, I compromise of the CEO, PA, Receptionist, Marketing department, Finance and the god damn Janitor. I'm even my own client. Because *I* am the only one who will ever get anything that I want done and I am the only one who will ever be interested. Me, I, myself, ME.




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