Angie

Angie's world
2016-12-13 06:48:00 (UTC)

At the end of the tunnel....

So i was told that at the end of the tunnel there is light. at this point of my life i am getting farther and farther away from this light. i am becoming someone i dont know. i feel like what i would imagine a person who is crazy starts to feel when they start to go mad. the sad thing is i feel alone. i feel as of i have no one to speak of these things to ,talk to. not my huband. not my family. not my friends. i have a new therapists but even when im talking to her i feel as if i should hold my tongue. i dont feel like hurting myself or others if thats what you might think. i just cant get a grip on life. for about four years i have controlled my anxiety medication free. but now my friend anxiety is in control and everyday i feel more and more powerless. i have now decided to get on medication that wont make me a zombie or make me sleep all day but help me cope with the anxiety. the anxiety i suffer from was caused from a car accident i was in 5 years ago. i couldnt breathe then and i cant breathe now. i cant breathe. so i have these anxiety attacks that sometimes turn into panic attacks. and i cant breathe. i am now very impatient and very easily upset. anger. i feel so much anger. i make myself get worked up about 70% of time. everyday is a struggle. i know many people suffer from much worse everyday and my heart goes out to them. i dont even know if anyone will read this or even understand. i just know writing things out like my feelings or problems will help lead to writing out my triumphs and success. i am tackling everything. maybe one thing at a time. but i am going to get to the root and conquer my anxiety. i need to get back to being an awesome mother and good wife. ............. i already feel good. good first step i would say!




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