Songbird System

Raven
2016-12-12 13:38:47 (UTC)

My Little World

I think it should not shock anybody to learn that I wear headphones. XD Even when I'm not listening to music, I'm wearing headphones. Because headphones are the only way to block the noise, at least in the past. Even back then, I could hear the screaming and yelling and all I could do was turn the music up higher until my ears started ringing. At times like those, I actually wished I was deaf or become deaf. It was unbearable. Because it was just hours and hours and hours of screaming and screaming. And I still remember a lot of things people said. Because, no matter how hard I tried, nothing would block off the hatred.

I only got the nerve to record a fight once. And that came with some very back video quality. I've considered uploading it to Youtube, but it would never work. If it did, I would become the next big thing though to just be forgotten in a couple months time. If I can't tell, I'm in a bad mood. I'm in the "I want to fucking punch the wall while crying" mood. So, yeah, I'm not exactly happy at the moment. Because my headphones broke. Again. I really need to get over this.

BUT YOU'RE A WORTHLESS PIECE OF TRASH THAT CAN'T DO ANYTHING RIGHT. Stop it! HOW ABOUT YOU ACTUALLY GET OFF YOUR ASS FOR ONCE AND DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? Please stop talking. WHAT A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT, I HOPE SHE SUFFERS. No, please, God no. I'm having one of my PTSD flashbacks. Great. Now I feel...WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS. A BITCH IS A COMPLIMENT, YOU'RE WORSE THAN A FEMALE DOG CAN EVER HOPE TO BE. YOU'RE NOT HUMAN, JUST WORTHLESS. WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT.

NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I will not let you fucking defeat me! I will continue onwards! No! No! No! No! Get out of my fucking head you piece of fucking shit! I'm not gonna sit down and look pretty. Trust me, I already have started my revenge, and, by the time I'm done, the whole world will see you as the monsters that I see you as. There's no stopping me now. See, I've my episodes, but, deep down inside, I'm gonna be a stubborn ass bitch. And I'm always gonna be a stubborn ass bitch. Nothing, I repeat nothing, will stop me before I get what I deserve. Revenge.




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