Songbird System

Raven
2016-12-01 07:53:20 (UTC)

More thoughts

You know what else my therapist says, I'm not over my past and that's okay. People push me to just get over it but that's not how the mind works. I spent my childhood in places I can easily call Hell, to say it wasn't pretty is an understatement. And people are always like "then what do you think the children starving in death in Africa think? Compared to them, you've an easy life. Roof under your head, internet, food to eat." And I used to believe them. I used to feel so bad about being depressed because there were millions of kids out there who have it worse than me. At least I'm not dying. But then I said fuck that train of thought! I've been through more of Hell than anybody that can say that can even imagine! Yeah, there are people who have it worse than me, but that doesn't change the fact that my past was traumatic! It shocks psychologists even when they don't get the full story. To say my story makes for an interesting caseload is an understatement indeed. Now for somebody to hopefully keep it for over a year.

Do or do not, there's no try <--sorry, Yoda, I love you and all but I'm wiser than you here. There's try, that's the only way to truly do what you're doing. Or I'm a fucking idiot. Probably a fucking idiot but who cares. You're hundreds of years old, of course you're gonna be wiser than me. I'm not gonna let my own mind bring me down. I've a plan and nobody is gonna stop it, even you school.




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