✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-11-06 04:18:06 (UTC)

Sorry For Everything

Dear Ashley,

This is probably the 100th letter I've written to you.

And that might be weird...

It's just this stuff takes time for me to get over and figure out and let go.. and there's several pieces left.

If I ever see you again, I know that as much as I wanted to, I wouldn't be able to tell you..
but if I did see you, and managed to say what I needed to say..
this is what it would be.

I'm sorry.
I am. I'm really and truly sorry for all the crap that I caused in the ninth grade... and further.

I just.. I was in a very bad place in that point of my life. I struggled heavily with social anxiety.. and identity issues.
I didn't know how to talk to people.. I didn't know who I was..
I had a lot of problems.

Looking back now, I just couldn't see how the things I did and said were actually really awkward and creepy.

And now.. it's so embarrassing to remember.
I am a much different person now than I used to be...
I'm definitely not perfect, but I do handle my anxiety a lot better than I used to...

And I really wish you could see how much I've changed...
I just really hate that you'll always remember me as that old version of myself that was so messed up inside.

To put it simply,
I'm sorry for everything I did.
And I hope that maybe someday you'll know that.

Sincerely,
Bygones




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