MissEnlightenment

Bipolar Mama
2016-10-21 06:06:41 (UTC)

What consequences am I signing myself up for..

What consequences am I signing myself up for if I make the call? The call to follow the call of the wild, to seek the life I feel?
Well, for one, I'd destroy not only the trust I've earned with my boyfriend but also shattered any last hope that I had to represnt the bi-polar community as someone who is able to function. (in this phase of my life, at least)
One toke, and I'd start my way.
That'd bring me back, getting high alone... fixated on myself as I very much already am. My stomache churning, recognizing the continuation of poor decisions I am about to unleash yet infatuated with the suggestion. Ultimately, who really cares? I am but another life floundering amoungst the millions. If i fall, i do so following what I believe in. I'd probably lose Kyle. I'm sure the hurt for that would set in with time.
No part of me can cope with the horrendous life I've lived thus far.




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