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Ghost Writer
2016-10-09 06:02:39 (UTC)

Do I Need People As Much As I Think I Can Cope With?

1903 hours Sunday evening.
Not a matter of rhetoric my entry title tonight ; it's a matter of reality.
I've pushed myself to the limit this last week right up until the moment I started writing this entry, with being around other folk. Not easy yet some folks were a heckuva lot safer and loving than others.

Everything Comes At A Price.

Church was wonderful this weekend. I got a lot out of it ; by that I mean the formal worship, however, the young woman I went with was diabolical.
She irritated the shit out of me as a church companion. She is a totally outward focussed soul who saw EVERYTHING wrong with my behaviour. She ended up pissing me off. I said 'amen' too loud. I coughed too much and I've got a chest infection. Not like I could fucken help it. She started verbally abusing me today. Last night was better. I should've left it there. It was continuous up until the time she brought me home.

The Lord Jesus Christ is Good and Great. The miracle is that he wouldn't allow her behaviour to put a damaging dent in my joy for worship today.

Five other individuals have rubbed me up the wrong way today and though each person left a tangible emotional wound, there were others who simply loved me. Therein lies the remainder of the miracle via counterbalance.

Hey. All I wanted to do was go to church, yet I got so much more.

So the answer to this entry's question is "yes" and "no".




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