Jennifer Njemanze

Mind Journey with Jennifer Njemanze
2016-09-16 19:03:37 (UTC)

PERFECT PAINTING

“The Perfect Painting”- Our daydreams and our night thoughts. If you are in this phase with me, then you are probably in that phase where you are confused, overwhelmed or uncertain about what the future holds. Still searching for the best colors to create a “PERFECT PAINTING”. I wake up everyday thinking and letting questions swim through my thoughts. I consider this stage of unanswered questions the most interesting time for me to choose some colors for the painting of my life. Where i want to settle, What areas of my life i want to focus on, What parts of me do i want to work on, How much work do i feel i need to put into myself before i feel fulfilled. How can i forget the most important question. WHAT REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY?? I travel a long way in my head. I sure do! Way longer than this mini list i just put down. “Life is what you make out of it”. Do i believe that?…If i was going to write it in a pen, I would say NO! because I can’t erase it. How about if it was to use a pencil? I would feel i could use my eraser. With crayons? Why not! Best part is you can choose to write it with whatever you liked. But in life there are no erasers because if we had the option of erasing we wouldn’t have mistakes and regrets to build us up. “We hold a big portion of making what we choose out of it”! Now thats what i chose to believe. Life is a drum of discoveries. BEAT IT! The only part i could figure out after days of thinking is that it can even get worse when you don’t take it one step at a time. Those underlying thoughts hovering deep in my mind. Now thats overwhelming because I ask myself a lot of questions at once. Questions i can hardly answer. Too scared to leave my mind open and keep painting, also too scared to mess it up. Just maybe i lost the “being content” part of everything. There were many times where i felt. I had failed at being content. I didn’t just feel it. i knew it! I just didn’t know it was happening. Was i content with the things i had? Was i content with the gifts i had inside of me? Those were definitely not material. Was i even content with the material ones? I could never find the balance. Was i content with love? I guess not. Talking about love…One has to find fulfillment in their hearts before they can totally fall in love with another. TAKE IT ONE STEP AT A TIME; Thats what i learnt overtime about Love. Oh well, I will write about this soon. I don’t have it all figured out but i will share with you what i could figure. Everything is a mystery isn’t it? I have chosen to paint the details of every word in my heart because in every painting, even a mistake looks like without it, The picture wouldn’t be perfect. Now thats how i choose to answer all my questions. I would paint my words with colors so when i think about it, it will show me the album of “MEMORIES” i have built. Well i guess i really can’t build them because they build themselves. just like I can’t write just to fill up the pages or write a page filled with my life in the detail but i can share with you every page of my thoughts. I hope its colours take us somewhere. whatever they maybe….“The Perfect Painting”- Our daydreams and our night thoughts. If you are in this phase with me, then you are probably in that phase where you are confused, overwhelmed or uncertain about what the future holds. Still searching for the best colors to create a “PERFECT PAINTING”. I wake up everyday thinking and letting questions swim through my thoughts. I consider this stage of unanswered questions the most interesting time for me to choose some colors for the painting of my life. Where i want to settle, What areas of my life i want to focus on, What parts of me do i want to work on, How much work do i feel i need to put into myself before i feel fulfilled. How can i forget the most important question. WHAT REALLY MAKES ME HAPPY?? I travel a long way in my head. I sure do! Way longer than this mini list i just put down. “Life is what you make out of it”. Do i believe that?…If i was going to write it in a pen, I would say NO! because I can’t erase it. How about if it was to use a pencil? I would feel i could use my eraser. With crayons? Why not! Best part is you can choose to write it with whatever you liked. But in life there are no erasers because if we had the option of erasing we wouldn’t have mistakes and regrets to build us up. “We hold a big portion of making what we choose out of it”! Now thats what i chose to believe. Life is a drum of discoveries. BEAT IT! The only part i could figure out after days of thinking is that it can even get worse when you don’t take it one step at a time. Those underlying thoughts hovering deep in my mind. Now thats overwhelming because I ask myself a lot of questions at once. Questions i can hardly answer. Too scared to leave my mind open and keep painting, also too scared to mess it up. Just maybe i lost the “being content” part of everything. There were many times where i felt. I had failed at being content. I didn’t just feel it. i knew it! I just didn’t know it was happening. Was i content with the things i had? Was i content with the gifts i had inside of me? Those were definitely not material. Was i even content with the material ones? I could never find the balance. Was i content with love? I guess not. Talking about love…One has to find fulfillment in their hearts before they can totally fall in love with another. TAKE IT ONE STEP AT A TIME; Thats what i learnt overtime about Love. Oh well, I will write about this soon. I don’t have it all figured out but i will share with you what i could figure. Everything is a mystery isn’t it? I have chosen to paint the details of every word in my heart because in every painting, even a mistake looks like without it, The picture wouldn’t be perfect. Now thats how i choose to answer all my questions. I would paint my words with colors so when i think about it, it will show me the album of “MEMORIES” i have built. Well i guess i really can’t build them because they build themselves. just like I can’t write just to fill up the pages or write a page filled with my life in the detail but i can share with you every page of my thoughts. I hope its colours take us somewhere. whatever they maybe….




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