--J

Your friendly Neighborhood Basketcase
2016-09-07 03:20:26 (UTC)

I don't really feel like writing, but I probably should

I got my car back. Still got some kinks to work out, but the most expensive one is fixed! ANd it's drivable! woohoo! I'm pretty excited about it. Still needs a number of repairs. Most of them not too pricey, but a pain in the ass to do. Thanks Toyota.

Got a camera I'm not sure if I can use it though. It's a Canon Powershot SX500 IS. Which we didn't realize was a zoom camera haha. Still, it's a nice camera and I will gladly take it for free. Thanks, mom. lol

Might be getting a new phone. Depends on whether loves shit friend finds someone else to sell it to first.

Dog has been licking itself incessantly since we came to the new place. I can't stand to be around her anymore unless I give her allergy medicine. It's incredibly fucking annoying. Her pills are expensive and difficult to give to her and just... sigh.

The little one hasn't been acting any different than she normally does. Big one is definitely more sensitive to allergens though. I'm going to look into getting allergy shots for her.

Think I've pissed off a friend by not giving her the attention she wants. It's a shame, but I never pretended I could be there for anyone else and often make it clear that I have to many problems to be depended on. It's nothing personal. She should know, but I guess if she doesn't want to fool with me then that's her business. ¯_(ツ)_/¯

Still have to get the title to my car. Don't even want to get into that. Should be coming along anyway.

Been struggling with art and exercise and diet and sleep which is pretty much my main focus right now. (edit add meds)

I'm also weaning off of the damned effexor! Finally. The depression is really hitting me, but on half the dose (35mg) I'm already feeling some side effects lessen and subside. I don't ever want to be on medicine that makes me as sick as this shit does.

My depression isn't terrible right now and I don't have to work, so I'm shooting for seeing if I can manage this without medicine this time. Could be an awful mistake. 99% of the time it is, but I've come closer in certain periods of times and I think my smyptoms are mild enough to safely give it a go right now. Life is also fairly stable. No better time than now probably.

I do feel constantly exhausted and that cold... atmosphere has settled around me. I know I'm pretty depressed, but it's the mania and pyschosis and mood swings that I can't handle. Right now those are dormant. We'll see I guess.

Today had pasta salad that made me sick to my stomach. It think my body is just sick of me eating nothing but shitty carbs. Should probably steam myself some broccoli tomrrow and stick with some egg whites or anything, but pasta haha. Waiting for my stamps to kick in. I planned them very poorly last time. Ran out too early of my healthy foods. I still have food, but not anything actually healthy. I blame the moves and travelling and blech. It's been a month, year, well blah.

I share them with my bf too because otherwise he's a bit of an loaf and won't eat well and make himself sick (On accident but still). I need to plan them out better, but make sure I'm taken care of first which shouldn't be too hard actually. I get 196$ Which seems a bit nutty to me. It's a lot. I'm very grateful for it. I woudln't run out at all if it was just me but I gotta keep the... bae (cringed I just can't say it) fed.

Ahhhhh. I'm gonna stop here. I'm very bored and tired so this is probably very boring. Sorry.
Have a great... whatever! 👍




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