miki

the walk
2016-08-10 16:53:34 (UTC)

Not satisfied and yet new aims

It late Wednesday and I've got to wash my hair for tomorrow. Sleeping until 5pm was a mistake. I'll be dead for the job interview tomorrow.

I'm still uneasy about the cancellation of the doctor's appointment even though there had not been any pain bothering me. It took so much effort to concentrate on how important this was and how this would be the perfect timing to do it, it caught me off guard to suddenly let these thoughts go. My whole life circled around "I have to" and "Fight the fear by remembering the pain in every single second you seem carefree". Now I'm stuck to thinking about it, even though I want to let go of this ugly grasp.

Distraction might be fine.
I'll prepare for the interview. I will read about some facts and try to study a little more. I'd like to seem like a well educated and realiable person.
Oh how I wish to get this impression across.

I want this job.
That's right. It should be my new focus.
This job is my aim now. Time to read a book again!




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