✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-07-22 03:03:00 (UTC)

Stay With Me - Part 6


Where It Fell Apart - Part 6

I remember we were skyping like normal,
And we started talking about a future together.

And, we came across the subject of having children.

Now, let me be clear.
I’ve had this conversation with our friends in the past about having kids.
He knew beforehand that I didn’t want any.

Now, if you want a detailed explanation as to why I don’t,
Please refer to my entry “Mother Dearest.”

We started talking about it,
And I reminded him that I didn’t want any.


He told me that it’s something he’s always wanted in his life,
And he tried to make it out like something... was wrong with me because I didn’t want kids. He just couldn’t understand how I couldn’t possibly want to be a mother.
He tried to convince me to change my mind about it.

At the time,
I didn’t understand it either.

I tried the best that I could to explain why, but I could tell that it wasn’t helping.
He still didn’t understand.

And believe me,
I felt horrible.
I wanted to make him happy.

And our conversation about it met an impasse.
It was clear that neither of us were going to budge about the matter.

And, he said he needed to get off of skype, and that he would be on facebook.

And after he hung up,
I burst into tears.

I felt like such a disappointment.
I straightened up my room, and I just had the worst feeling ever.

I just felt like something bad was going to happen.

When I got into bed, and logged into facebook,
I remember wanting to just apologize, and tell him everything that I was feeling..
Everything that the conversation made me feel..
And how horrible I felt for not being able to make him happy.

But, he wasn’t there.




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