Watasumi Kasai

Complaining about shit
2016-07-22 00:58:33 (UTC)

Goodbye Jr!

Some seiously crazy stuff has happened in the past few months but mostly to other people around me. One of my very good friends finally was able to have a son with his wife. He has 3girls already and was really looking forward to being a father to a son. For three months he was able to have that. Last Thursday the baby died from s.i.d.s. It's crazy how out of the blue that happend. My heart goes out to him and makes me remember the feelings I once held for him. Oh I just remembered that I've talked about him in here a lot of times lol. It's that married guys I use to talk about a lot. I just wish there was something I could do got him but I'll leave that up to his wife and friends out where he lives. He'll be coming to my city next Friday for my little brother's graduation party. It's very nice of him to remember it. My mom did ask him to come when he came out here a few months ago. He's a very good man (dispite he's somewhat hoe like nature lol) so seeing something like this happen to him breaks my heart. Seeing him in pain kills me more than I believe it should. I went to the funeral yesterday and felt so out of place. I wanted to leave so bad, I'm not in love with him anymore but I still feel stuff. I don't know what I'm trying to say. It's funny but I've only been in love with 2 people and these days my heart will bounce between those two. I've tried to fall in love with other guys, I thought I'd found the one lol one more than 1 occasion I was convinced I was in love😌😌😌. But, well I wasn't. I so want to be in love with someone other than these two. There will never be a future with either of them. So there's no point in thinking about it or crying about it. He'll be coming out here and things will be fun, we'll all have so much fun and I'll never try and talk to him in that way again. Right now the only thing he needs on his mind is his family and more importantly his wife. She's a sweet woman (from what I know of anyway) I hope they have a very long and wonderful life together. I just remembered that she got her tubes tied. I'd like to hope that it's the one where it can be reversed. I hope that he can be happy again and laugh with all of his heart. I wish from the bottom of my heart that he can be happy. I need him to be happy. I don't know why this happened to him but I know he'll pull through. I know he will.




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