Songbird System

Raven
2016-07-21 06:02:42 (UTC)

My Singing Voice...

You know what, I'm fucking tired of people thinking screamo and having a "scratchy" voice requires no effort or talent. I'M FUCKING SICK OF IT!

Everybody makes fun of me for my voice in my family. You know, of the ones I actually like singing to. They even say that when I was a child, my voice was heavenly, which it wasn't, and now I sound like a rock band reject.

I use to be okay with it. A select group of people on the internet found it creative and actually very moving. It sounds like a person who has gone through shit, mad at the world but still moving on and enjoying life, which is me. But...I'm starting to feel more and more down as those people start disappearing from my life due to personal issues and, well, I still need to talk about that Easter incident.

FUCK IT! I'M GONNA TO FUCKING TALK ABOUT IT NOW! Because I've been avoiding it for so long, I just need to open up about it! I figured out one of my internet friends committed suicide! HER FUCKING FAMILY TOLD ME! And nobody ever noticed the pain that I was going through. I was talking to her the day before she died, and, then, the next day, I woke up to a message explaining to me that she killed herself...she killed herself.....And we were pretty close. It was if I suddenly figured out Big Bro was about to kill himself, which he almost did. Which is why I'm so glad I talked him out of it. I didn't want to go through that again. Knowing that your friend killed themself and you could have done something to stop it.

I'm just so emotional right now. Don't know why, I just am. My period already ended, so that's out of the question. But, you know what, being emotion has made me open to finally talk about something that was in my mind for so long.

So goodbye Rin...I miss you. And...I guess I'll keep on singing those covers for your sake.




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