Songbird System

Raven
2016-07-21 04:53:44 (UTC)

Writings

Um, I seriously have no idea what to name these things. Like, seriously, one entry I just pressed a lot of random buttons on my keyboard just to fill up that title space.

Anyways, I want to talk about my writings more. Why? Because I think I should. What people put in a story says a lot about them as a human being. That can be said about any art, except if the artist was forced into it. Then it shows the true colors of the person that forced them into it.

I've already talked in full detail in this diary that I've a dark mind. I had one ever since I could remember due to already facing loads of trauma before the ripe old age of three. And, because of this, I always had a problem expressing myself to other people when I was younger. Some people literally thought I was a psychopath. Sure, I could've went down the road to a psychopath if I actually did different things when I was younger, but I'm not, that's an alternate me, not this me that is writing shit down in this diary at this very moment.

I turned to storytelling when I was six years old. Because that's when the true shit of my life started to happen. Sexual assault is no joke, kids. Okay, because I really don't want to talk about that right now, let's keep on going with the story. I used to express myself only to the closest members of my family. I created stories with my dolls (that resulted in a lot of death...and trangendered and lesbian characters...six years old creating more characters of LGBT community before they even knew what that even meant). And, of course, drawings. ;) And Before-Shit-Got-Worst Narrator.

And, now, I'm being sneaky and actually creating metaphors for my own life. Yeah, Dad, I totally did not make my main character have ADHD because you say it doesn't exist and didn't give me the treatment I needed. Not at aaalll. And, no, I did not make my main villain struggle with feeling no gender but being forced to be one because I'm demigendered. Not at aaaaalllll. And--Okay, you get the idea.

Plus, Maria, I'm saying her name since I've mentioned her before somewhere in the depths of this diary, I think. is literally who Charlotte is. That's why she, ahem, part of everybody's world and able to shape reality. Because Charlotte claims she is the sub mind and, well, the sub mind can do that. And now I've a character for Narrator. And, guess what, she's the actual main villain and not my main villain. And Maria really hates her, like fucking Charlotte.

So sneaky me is sneaky. ;)




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