xo-wallflower

xo-wallflower
2016-07-19 02:54:25 (UTC)

Reading past entries

The point of this diary was not only so I can vent without friends and family seeing this, but as well as wanting to re read the things I wrote in the past and seeing how different things are and how much I've grown. I just realized I've had the diary for the last three years. I was in my last year of high school almost graduated when I made this. I remember googling so much trying to find the perfect site to use and this popped up. I am very happy with this diary site and I hope to continue to use it for a long time. I've read some of my past entries and I've definitely grown over the last three years. And I'd say for the better. It's crazy to read some of the entries of people I once had in my life. Though I don't have a very interesting life, I find it quite interesting reading the things I've once written. I sit here jamming out to music realizing how much I've changed. I've really grown quite a lot. When I started this I was quite a depressed, shy and anxiety filled girl. Though I still have depressed days and that anxiety, but I really have made a change from three years ago. I've been on a rollercoaster. The start of this diary I was 18 years old. Almost done high school. I was depressed and felt very alone. I would cut myself and cry often. As time passed things changed. I got a job and did my first year in University. I started putting myself out there and got involved with seeing boys. I pushed myself to get past the anxiety of riding a bus. I turned 19. Working the same job and saving money. I got into a relationship and tried my second year in University. Lost my virginity. I turned 20. Same job. Tried college. Started self harming again. Finally went out to the club and experience it. Passed my road test. Turned 21. Got out of the relationship. Same job still. Waitlisted for school. It's only July so I cannot wait to see what else will happen. 3 years ago I was still a virgin, I was 18 and in high school. 3 years later that's all different. I hope to keep up with this and make more to read and look back on. Hope everyone has a good day/night! :)




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