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Ghost Writer
2016-07-14 03:22:18 (UTC)

Day 5 of 12.

I have off-site leave tomorrow for the weekend. Then I need to be back for a night in-house, then leave until Wednesday night or Thursday morning then I'm discharged after a final meeting.
Looks like I'm going to have to postpone seeing the grandchildren for a while. Hopefully within the first month of my grandson's birth, I'll be able to see him and hold him in my arms and cry. I want to see him before he's a month old. By that time my daughter may be back home.
I hope that the daughter will let me see him, and I hope that I can see my other grandchildren too.

The burden is a more bearable now I'm back on meds. Meds that work and are mostly positive.

Crikey I've just got one load of shit out of my body and now I've got the next lot.
I'm taking my own plan into this meeting next week and a short list of questions. Plus two support people.

I've had so much wonderful help. Relapse is research. I'm catching on to things that I've missed in the past.
I find being surrounded by fellow-sufferers and peers invaluable in giving and receiving the message of recovery. Yes it happens in hospital too, which is wonderful.
Lightens the load and makes going back out more bearable and positive among a host of other things.

Got money for cigarettes now. Very grateful.
Eating better. Sleeping better. No more Olanzipine now Zopiclone to sleep on now, short term.

Drawing today in OT room. Participated in two classes.

Can only smoke three times a day...finally accepted that. Got nicotine replacement - a pipe.

Must wash my clothes out for the third time since I've been here. Only got one set and I'm managing. Text messages have arrived gotta go....




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