FrenchgirlIDF

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2016-07-12 06:35:46 (UTC)

I quit my job and go back to school

I haven't written here for a long time.Sorry about that.... Anyway, it's not like I had many fans /followers to please :) I'm not a high flyer diarist, just an anonymous French woman in her thirties trying to get her act together.
Since my last entry,a lot of events occurred.I quit my job.I was exhausted and that job the incredibly long daily commute to get there just got the better of me.In addition,I never could fit in.
My GP gave me a sick leave as it happens that I wasn't even able to stand on my own two feet one morning.My body just didn't responded that day.I was still grieving my father, in my own way ,that is to say...escaping it through work, focused on anything but IT,and it came at a huge prize.
I returned to my workplace one week later, to find out my colleagues never expected me to go back ...nor did my boss.
For us, me quitting that firm was just a matter of time.They were right.They saw it coming.
I cried my eyes out in front of my boss the day after ,on a verge of a nervous breakdown, and he told me I could quit without any notice.According to his record,53 already threw their towel this year.A huge number.There is an incredible turnover here on call centres.I always had the feeling that we were the factory workers of the 21th century, except that we are answering clients demands at an incredible pace instead of using real tools on an assembly line.
On the bright side,I got accepted to enrol at the University in September.
I'm starting to freak out a little bit but deep down I know it's a better environment for me .
It's also a huge challenge, given my age,33,and the stigma attached to old students in my country (France). If you go back to school, it equals to being a failure or an immature person not ready to get back on track ,earn money and so on...It's understandable, in one sense, but I know that in doing so,I could ,perhaps, allow myself to recover from all I've been through at work and get my self-confidence back.Everybody deserves a second chance.
Isn't it ?
I'm just under a huge pressure to success right now,a self-inflicted one.
So I'm already hitting the books on a daily basis, studying the American and British History.At the present time, I read a lot about the Tudor's dynasty, and the Gold rush.I also must upgrade my level in Spanish, so I subscribed to a magazine tailored for students eager to make progress in that area.
And ...icing on the cake.... I'm going to San Francisco in August, with my partner, to get a taste of the American way of life.I'm looking forward to it.Those vacations are really expensive when you're on a tight budget, but it is worth it .I need to go there, to travel the world.Now that my father passed away,I measure the importance of being happy and doing what you like, whenever you can.And I can, so I do it.Period !
Have a beautiful day.




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