Mr. Tough guy
Tonight was harder to cope than normal. No drama so I don't exactly understand what's up. Do you get freaking chemical unbalance at my age? Fuck me if I do. It's about 2:45 in the morning and I can't sleep.
I shouldn't be but I'm thinking about the kids. I worry about them. I pray that they are ok and I'm actually praying a bit. My prayer is not for me. My prayer is for the kids to forget about me. I don't want them to hurt or miss me. I don't want them to grow up with issues because of parents like my ex and I. I pray that they forget about me and move on with life so their little hearts grow up to become good loving people.
So that's what I've been praying for. For the kiddos to forget about me. To not hurting not miss me. They don't have the mental strength to cope like I do so I pray.
That's all I got for now diary.