May 9, 2016 Monday 10:03 PM
Um. I wish the internet were all-knowing. But it's only good for general stuff.
Sometimes I wanna know what so-and-so thinks of me. Or what blah-blah-blah thinks about when he/she is being quiet. Sometimes I wanna know things about myself.
Like. Will I enjoy that program next year? What'll it be like? Will I regret my choice to be in that program?
I can't answer this. Any of it. And my first thought is to google it but of course that never works quite like I want it to haha. What am I expecting?
All lights will turn off and the computer screen will glow bright. Even the sun will go out while my monitor starts floating a foot off the ground. It will say, "VERONICA..." in a weird, deep Imaginary God From A Disney Movie type voice, "...WHAT IS IT THAT YOU SEEK..." and then the damn thing can talk away my fears. Or maybe magnify them. But either way, at least I'll know that I'm making the right/wrong decision. I can take action from there.
But like always, I'm left to my own devices. No one can help me. No one can tell me for sure what's gonna happen. I'm not stupid, I know this is something that persists for all people.
Ugh. Gotta go. G'bye.