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A Subs Space... OVER 18!
2016-04-29 04:40:24 (UTC)

Just another day...

i was hoping to see Master today, but it isn't happening :(
Although why i would want to get yet another, even harder punishment, i don't know?
i'm definitely no pain slut!
Yes, i got in trouble again, and it was over nissa :(
i saw her come online a few times the other day, and she went. i PM'ed her all over, asking to talk to her. she didn't reply. i emailed her, she didn't reply!
So after a few days of seeing this, from Saturday night when i last heard from her, to Wednesday this week, i finally had enough!
Everyone who knows me well, knows i struggle to ignore such obvious ignorance! And the fact she was also ignoring a lot of emails from Master had me boiling already!

So i took matters into my own hands, and PM'ed her on site, telling her if we hadn't received a response from her, THAT DAY, we wouldn't be contacting her anymore. BIG MISTAKE!

Not for her sudden reply... what *i* think is pure BS, btw, and is no excuse for her absence of response whatsoever, but for speaking for my Master, and assuming He would be fine with it.
As He said, i knew i was doing wrong as i wrote the PM, and then as i clicked send! i just needed to make her talk!

It worked, as i said... withing a couple of hours, i had received PM's and emails from her! she said she didn't know why she showed as online all the time... BULLSHIT! she was coming and going, so i *know* she was on and off!
she said her aunt had been taken very ill, and had just a couple days to live, and she hadn't been online at all but i think that is also bullshit... she was online during the time of her aunts supposed sudden illness, AND after, and still is on and off!

So i let it go, and apologised for my emails and PM's, and hoped her aunt didn't suffer too much.
Then Master got pissed at me, and said He was embarrassed by my behaviour, which i completely understand :( i would be getting another *very* red bottom :(

He emailed nissa too. Guess what, none of us has heard back from her yet! And guess what... she's been on and off all the time since her last email!
i was angry again by yesterday, but i controlled it, and wrote a draft email, saying mainly that i was sorry for all the emails and PM's, but that is mainly because i had made Master displeased if i'm honest! i also said i thought it was time she decided if she really *was* interested in joining us or not. That now was the time to tell us so we didn't waste any more time and effort with each other. i showed it Master first, and He said i could send it.

So that went yesterday afternoon, and yes, she was on and off all day again yesterday, so i PM'ed her on the 2 different sites we're both on, and told her while she was online, that i had emailed her.
she even had the cheek to check out my profile on one of them!
And guess what... this morning, and STILL NO RESPONSE!

So yeah, i'm well over her now. she can talk, but i won't be sparing my words with her much more if she does. i'll be polite, but as far as i can see, it's over, and Master said if He hadn't heard from her by the end of today, He would tell her tomorrow that she wasn't for us.

And yes, i will search again... *sighs*... because i *know* there will be someone one day, and i will never tire of looking for her, for both of us.




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