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2016-04-19 06:42:46 (UTC)

A day to never forget.

Honestly, I never expected things to end the way they did , just recently I lost someone very special in my life.my godfather , December 18. Was the worst day of my life . I still remember the day as if it was yesterday. I was getting ready to go otp party , was going to shower but my dad called me in and I went. He started to cry and told me he was gone. I never understood what people meant that everything can fall apart in just one second . But that day I learned . I learned that in one moment everything.could be going so well . But next thing you know, you end up feeling like your whole world has come down. I hated having to wear all black because I had no choice. I didn't want to do anything afterwards because I just felt no need to.i remember going to the wake and not wanting to see him . I wish I didn't honestly because I don't want to believe that it is true. I hate having to relive it all over. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. I miss him so much. He usto always let me play with him and my dad . He always gave me his winnings because I was his favorite. I remember the tomy caramel candy he would give me , or the pistachios he would buy me. Everytime I eat some I can't help but think of him. I can't believe he is gone. He always remembered my birthday and made sure he called. I know he loved me and I loved him too.. I miss him so much , it hurts knowing that he is no longer here... I wish I could just hug him and hear him one last time, the way his voice was raspy , the way he would smile , oh God it was the perfect smile,he is now with my madrina , and may God rest their soul's, I bet they're happy right now , looking down on me as I type , and if that's the case, I love you padrino...fuistes como un papa , y tu también madrina , la quiero mucho, se que mi mama te extraña mucho.. y un día nos encontraremos en el otro mundo , juntos otra vez. I know you both see my games , Y cada vez que estoy jugando se que estas conmigo. ..y que me están ayudando y apoyando desde el cielo lindo. Los extraño, y los quiero ... nunca se olviden de cuanto los quiero...




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