✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-04-17 21:51:40 (UTC)

Your Biggest Mistake

Dear Reader,

A little bit ago I left the bathroom and into the living room,

Where I heard my grandparents and my aunt saying that they hated the Internet.

My grandpa looked at me with complete disgust, after he said getting the Internet and letting us have computers and electronics was the biggest mistake they ever made.

My grandma said shortly after that it ruined us.

I just felt so compelled to write this.


The Internet saved me.


If I didn't have access to the internet,
I doubt I'd be the person that I am today.

In fact, I don't know if I'd still be here.


I was an underdeveloped shell of a being that couldn't function.

I was lost and blank...


I shut off my emotions as a child, and when they bubbled over when I was 15... I turned to the internet.
When I struggled inside with rejection for the first time, I turned to the internet.
And when I struggled inside with my sexuality,
I turned to the internet.
And when I struggled inside with my gender identity, I turned to the internet.
When I struggled inside with my depression, my anxiety, my fears, my worries, my hopes, my dreams, my passions, my religious stance, my love life, my friendships, and my home life.
I turned to the internet.

And with the internet, I found this website via my pink 3DS, and I've written diaries here since 2012 on it, and my grandpa's laptop when I had a turn to use it.

And I found my very first genuine friend, and he became my first love.
And he was the first person that I opened up to and let my defenses down... the first person who ever truly knew me.
With his help, I learned how to talk to people.
I learned how to be myself.

I found my best friend, Nick who cares about me.
And I talk to him every single day, and he's done so much for me.
He's there for me for everything.

I found my boyfriend whom I love deeply. And he loves me just as much.
I never would have met him if I never had access to the internet.

With the help of the Internet I learned that I don't have to be Christian if I don't want too.

With the help of online support, I know that I am not straight nor am I feminine, and I also know that there is absolutely nothing wrong with that.


I learned how to talk to people, and how to reach out when I need help.

I learned who I was, and became who I am today.
I learned how to battle my demons, and how to coexist with them.


The Internet allowed me to escape just for a little while, and provided me an outlet for everything.


The Internet has done more for me emotionally,
and has taught me more than you ever have.

The Internet was there for me, when you weren't.


So, the biggest mistake you ever made raising us,
is what saved me in the long run.
Is what saved your granddaughter.

The greatest thing you ever did for me, besides put a roof over my head, clothes on my back, and provide me with food to eat,

Was give me access to the internet.


Sincerely,
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