sft

A Subs Space... OVER 18!
2016-04-10 05:10:04 (UTC)

The following days

Master went away yesterday morning, and i havent heard from Him since His brief goodbye to me at 4.31am yesterday.

i'm missing Him already.
i began talking to someone from here via email the other day.
she is a regular reader, and has often sent me messages of support here. So we decided to chat via email to make it easier.
i gave her mine, she gave me hers. i emailed her.
she said she emailed me but i never received it.
So she emailed me again, only this time it was a different addy.
It felt good talking to someone who wasn't *involved* in any way.
i noticed after, a coulpe of emails in my spam box. Opening them, i found they were from her, but from both the email addys she had given me. Both of them had warnings attached to them, saying they could be potentially threatening emails, to steal personal info.

Now i freaked out! Especially after the guy in the car the other day!
i got another email from her saying she had joined fet to see what it was all about. she said she had viewed my profile.

i suppose it's all my recent insecurity and then the guy in the car, and then the email warnings... but that freaked me out too. lol
i think my *little* side is surfacing fast!
The scared, vulnerable girl, who finds it hard to trust :(

Then i got another email from her after asking about the email warnings. she said she had no idea why they were attached to her emails, and that if i didn't want to talk, not to worry about it, she wouldn't bother me anymore. she finished by wishing Master and i all the best for the future :(

i felt immediately bad for my mistrust, when i read that this morning, and emailed her to ask what her fet name is. i said i would check her out there.
But i will email her personal email too, because she might not get the one i sent to her other one.

Now all i can do is wait.
you know who you are if you read this... i'm sorry :(




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