Wildheart

Rantings of a restless mind
2016-04-05 03:19:07 (UTC)

Falling apart

So tomorrow marks the 2nd month since you left... I thought things would get better... or should I say easier, the more time passed... but it is exactly the opposite. I am finding it hard to find a reason to continue smiling... to continue to shine my light. Nothing has the same meaning, appeal, feeling... I can see myself just existing until I am no more. I don't care... I know that is wrong because there are others who live in my heart who deserve to have me there for them and to love them as I have loved you and I do... but right now, I don't have the desire to move on. Does this make me selfish? Will I ever be happy again? Are you happy? is this what you had in mind? You have moved on and your new journey has begun... we are left in the disarray of your hasty exit. You know how I am about letting anyone else in... or helping for that matter and now you are forcing me to have to open up so I don't go insane. I feel as though I am going to be consumed by my emotions and that is scary to me. I just want to hear your voice again...




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