sft

A Subs Space... OVER 18!
2016-04-02 05:57:45 (UTC)

Pivotal...8

Master pulled the covers over us and i ranted some more...

"i don't know how You could do this to me! i thought she was long gone! No wonder she hasn't spoken to me for a month! she was too busy with You... arranging all this! The fucking sneaky, dirty little bitch! i hate her!"

Master told me to stop, and asked me why i was behaving like this?
i was gobsmacked!
"What did You expect me to be like?", i shouted.

He was angry now... i could tell. He rolled onto His back, and told me to stop again, and said, "come here, you can pleasure Me again before I take you home".

i was amazed! He had pulled the covers down to let me have access to His now spent cock!
There was no way! Absolutely no way!
i refused... "No!", i spat.
He repeated the order more clearly... "My pet... suck My cock!".
"No!", i repeated, and now the tears gathered.
"My pet... you do NOT disobey a direct order!"

i lay there, all thoughts of Him and amie going through my head :(
He brushed an angry hand over His head, and i could see the tension and anger etched into His face.

"Ok... I'm going to countdown...

5... because you are My slave..."
i put my shaking hands to my face to stop the tears from falling.

"4... because I Own you..."
It didn't work, and i was getting scared of the Man now invading my head with His words.

"3... because you are Mine..."
i didn't feel i could do it! Didn't feel i could submit to Him any longer... especially not that day :(
And then came number 2...

"2... because there's no turning back..."

i slowly lowered myself to His cock, and taking it in my hand, i put trembling lips around it, and sobbed as i sucked Him.

After just a minute or two, He pulled me up again.
"That's all I wanted". And He held me, although i wasn't feeling it at all :(
i lay there numb :(
"I'm not going to fuck her. I'm just going to punish her! And she still may not even turn up!"
i didn't care, and i'm ashamed to say i didn't believe Him either :(
she wasn't going to come all this way for a quick spank and then go home! And then i had visions of them spending the night together :(
It was too much :( i couldn't cope with it!

i heard the phone go again :(
Master said i could get dressed again, so i did, and stood there for ages as He messed with His phone:(

i looked at the bed... they'd be in it or on it... together. He'd be kissing her... holding her... spanking her... fucking her...

This was the end of us :(

He came over to me, and held His arms out... "you have to come to Me, My pet. It's how it works. If it wasn't amie, it would be someone else".
And i thought about that. Was He telling me He had had others here? Or that it was just going to happen in my training as His slave? So i asked Him straight... "How many others have You had since we were together?"
He said none.

i just wanted to go home. i didn't want Him to touch me again, but i wasn't getting out the door without going into His arms again, so i did, and i cried, as i imagined them there together, and probably spending the night too :(

in my mind, it was over now. i saw this as a betrayal. my trust in Him was gone, and my confidence in us went with it :(

He let me go, and repeated that she might not come still, and that if she did, He was just going to spank her... that was all...

i nodded, and we went out the room and down the stairs to the car. As we reached the door of the hotel, Master stopped and gave me the car keys... "Get in the car... I forgot My phone, I need to go back for it".

How ironic... that phone was in His hands more than i was that day... and now He'd left it behind!
i sat in the car and cried some more, but quickly wiped my tears away as He came back.

The drive back was quiet, but it gave me time to reflect on all that was said and done that day, and especially Master's words...

"you are My slave. I Own you. you are Mine. There's no turning back..."

He's right, of course. There is no turning back, and i tried to console myself with the thought that maybe she wouldn't turn up, and if she did, i would just have to trust Master to stick to His word.

i was dropped off and walked up home crying, while He went back to wait for amie.

That was the hardest day of my last 3 years, and it wasn't over yet...





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