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Ghost Writer
2016-03-27 22:35:31 (UTC)

A Phonecall.

Didn't get to bed until about 2am this morning. Woke up at eight and went back to bed again and woke up again at 10:39am. Shortly after, I got a call from the grandson. The call "went well" until I mentioned school and then he hung up on me. I called him back and said "You pressed the red button grandson and I couldn't talk to you anymore."
"I don't want to listen to you talking Gramma." He sounded upset because I had mentioned school.
"Gramma just called you back to say goodbye and I love you grandson."
"Ok gramma bye I love you."
I said goodbye and left it at that.
I don't think school is going well for him.
When I say the call "went well", he still doesn't talk much, he just listens mostly while he's watching something on his I-pad. I can say only a short sentence or two then my grandson says
"What was that gramma?", or "Pardon?", or "What did you say gramma?", so having a conversation is quite difficult as I don't know how much he has heard. He needs me so I shall persevere. I've asked whether or not he has been able to talk to his mummy. He told me that he's been able to reach her twice and he has tried to call her quite a few times.
Their phone is a blessing, I understand that communication with important others in their life doesn't come easy for them for a lot of valid reasons.
My daughter is pregnant with her third child and has mental health issues making it even more difficult to communicate with her children especially her oldest child, her daughter who may still not want much to do with her mother. My beloved grandchildren need me so I will persevere with courage and love.
Life is no lazy summer's day I will write that much and even though I find myself personally in a whole new set of circumstances, the fight for my grandchildren must go on.
That family that I've been kicked out of and left behind is very unsafe. My grandchildren are living amongst the daily bullshit still and I have moved on to better circumstances that are generally safe. This is not okay for my grandchildren.

God, please grant my grandchildren and myself a much needed and much welcomed break in life. Heaven knows we deserve and am worthy of one. Love Amanda-Jane. Amen.




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