✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-03-25 21:53:22 (UTC)
Defense Mechanism
Dear Reader,
When something hurts me,
My immediate response is to sever it, or disconnect from it.
I've written about it before...
I guess my defenses aren't gone completely like I thought...
I shut my feelings off as a child.
I refused to feel anything including happiness.
Doing that, results in me being extremely sensitive.
I got so upset and cried so much...
That old defense is back.
I'm just numb.
I'm cold, recoiled..
I can't feel anything.
Except the old familiar self hatred.
Did I overreact... I don't know.
I'm a hypocrite though.
A selfish hypocrite.
And a piece of shit girlfriend.
Sincerely,
Numb
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