✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-03-25 21:53:22 (UTC)

Defense Mechanism


Dear Reader,

When something hurts me,
My immediate response is to sever it, or disconnect from it.

I've written about it before...

I guess my defenses aren't gone completely like I thought...

I shut my feelings off as a child.
I refused to feel anything including happiness.

Doing that, results in me being extremely sensitive.

I got so upset and cried so much...
That old defense is back.

I'm just numb.
I'm cold, recoiled..
I can't feel anything.

Except the old familiar self hatred.

Did I overreact... I don't know.
I'm a hypocrite though.
A selfish hypocrite.

And a piece of shit girlfriend.

Sincerely,
Numb




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