✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-03-20 04:00:48 (UTC)
Cracks
Dear Reader,
I wish I could turn a light on.
Writing this on the iPod E gave to me.
I didn't know what else to do....
Writing via touch screen is nerve wracking....
But I'm losing it..
Nick isn't responding
Josh went to bed....
And I can't stop crying.
I thought FaceTime might help...
I'm so sick of not being able to see or hear Josh...
Watching the videos on his Facebook because I miss
his voice so much...
I'm shaking so hard....
I feel so broken...
Dragging my fingers across the cracks on the screen...
Knowing the pocket knife is in the dresser drawer..
The same one that made me pour blood....
Intrusive, impulsive thoughts fill my head, and I can't breathe.
I just want to sleep and never wake up.
Sincerely,
Scarred
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