✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
My Escape
Dear Reader,
I have a curse with technology.
It started with my brother’s Nintendo DS Lite.
I was walking in circles around him,
And accidentally yanked the charger,
It flew out of his hands and broke in half on the floor.
I was beyond sorry.
Since then,
My own Nintendo 3DS.
My own Nintendo 2DS.
My brother’s 3DS that he gave me,
Because he had gotten himself a new 3DS xl.
I’ve broken a laptop.
I’ve broken an mp3 player.
I’ve broken this stereo/DVD player that I got for Christmas.
Some of these things, I didn’t break myself,
They just stopped working.
Like the stereo, both 3DS’s won’t charge anymore.
And now, the laptop that my brother gave me,
Is overheating on the inside,
And I don’t know what happened.
We’re going to dust the inside out with a dusting can,
And see if that will fix it.
I’m lucky that we have the gaming computer, and the DSI miraculously works with facebook somehow.
It’s just that, my younger brother hogs this computer,
And the xbox.. (Both are hooked up to the same tv)
All the time.
Yeah, I can use it when he’s at school,
But school is almost over.
My uncle, Danny, has promised to give me a smartphone that he has.
He’s already paying for an extra user and everything.
But like....
It’s so frustrating.
I have finally gotten over the writer’s block, and am writing in a diary again,
And now I have to wait for a window of time to write.
And the worst part is....
Now I can’t skype.
I can’t see Josh...
And hear Josh...
And he can’t see or hear me.
Skyping is like... a huge asset to communication...
It’s what helped normalize our relationship...
Skype to me, is a bridge.
It makes the whole long distance shebang so much easier...
And now it’s gone... might be for awhile.
And I’m so afraid that it’s going to hurt our relationship...
I plan on looking for a job,
And at some point,
I’ll buy another laptop.
My brother said he might buy himself a new one,
And let me have the one he uses now.
Ever since I was 15 years old,
The internet has been my escape...
I don’t know how sane I’d be today without it.
But I know one thing...
I am not losing that sanity.
I’m not a confused, and lost kid anymore.
I’m stronger now,
And I’ve come so far...
I realized the other day,
That nothing is going to change,
While I stay locked in my room all the time.
It’s going to be difficult...
But I always knew that I’d have to someday.
Sincerely,
Cursed
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