Nowhere girl

Finding a reason to breath
2016-03-07 22:06:58 (UTC)

nothing hurts more

Nothing hurts more then when you always re assuring someone you love them and they never say it back. It fucken hurts so bad!!!!And the last thing im gonna do is call them out on it, cause then they might validate my thoughts. They might really confirm that they dont say it back because either one they never did, or two they just dont anymore, and possibly never will.

I dont know why i insist on trying so hard to hang on to what little relationship Diana and me still have. Im an idiot. Its like if you have to try this hard then obviously its not meant to be.

Its like everytime i make progress and take 5 steps foward i just take 2 more back. I guess im afraid of admitting to myself that this is the end! Its really over! I envy those people who are so strong and have such good will power and love for themselves to move foward and let go and live their life!!! Why cant I be one of those people!Why....

Instead here i am suppose to be working but instead im balling my eyes out at my desk, dwelling on something i cant change. Crying because someone doesnt love me the way i love them. Seriously i need to move foward and i just dont know how...




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