✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
Stay With Me - Part 1
Dear Reader,
Spoiler Alert,
He didn’t.
Do you ever just see someone around, and you don’t know why, but you would really like to get to know them?
That’s how I felt when I saw him around school.
He was chubby, and had chubby cheeks.
He had curly blonde hair with the sides shaved.
I don’t know why, I just wanted to be his friend.
It was my Junior year, and it wasn’t until the second semester began, that we officially met.
It was through a mutual friend, Steven.
He sat with us at lunch for the first day or so.
It was just the three of us to begin with.
His name is Alex.
He was a sophomore at the time.
My social anxiety makes it extremely difficult to make friends on my own, but I didn’t have too with Alex. Steven was there, and it wasn’t long before Garrett, Andeh, and Jordan joined us the next week at lunch.
The first day, we just talked about why we weren’t religious.
He said I had a superman swoop to my hair.
(Which was taken as an insult, btw. *Clings to Batman Plushie*)
Steven was late to lunch, and Alex slowly walked to our table like a lost puppy, and I remember looking up at him, smiling, and telling him he could sit with us.
He smiled back, and obliged.
Our circle of friends was something I hadn’t had before.
It was around the time I began finding myself, and dressing the way I felt most comfortable.
We laughed, and talked at lunch.
Alex started hanging out with us in the library in the morning time too.
Him, and my friend Tez, did not get along at all.
She was the type to swing into a bitchy attitude in no time, but Alex did not stand for it whatsoever, and so eventually, she just stopped hanging out with us in the mornings altogether.
Which, I horribly, did not mind.
She was always in a hateful mood in the morning, and sucked the fun out of everything.
I introduced Alex to my best friend at the time, Sarah.
And, it wasn’t long until Sarah started to crush on him a little.
But, it was whatever.
Life marched on, and nothing happened from it.
And so,
As the first quarter passed,
The closer our group of friends became.
And the closer I became to Alex.
I only ever saw him as my friend.
And despite everything that happened, I will always stand by saying that Alex was a great friend to me.
He tried to comfort me the time that I came to school crying my eyes out, because my grandma had upset me before I got onto the bus.
He said he had told his mom about me, and asked if I were ever kicked out, could they open their doors for me.
We all liked to tease him, because he was the youngest.
He was funny. He was cool. He was nerdy.
He was sensitive, but sometimes crude.
But he was a great friend.
After the first quarter had passed,
Sarah’s lunch schedule had changed, and she was put into our lunch shift.
They were already friends, but it helped them become closer friends.
We laughed. We bonded. They played the card game, magic. Steven bought Sarah and I extra cookies every day.
I began to find myself. I began to finally un-bottle my feelings.
I finally had a group of friends that knew me, and loved me for who I was.
And, you know, Life was good for a moment.
But, the moment ended.
Sincerely,
Me
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