Wildheart

Rantings of a restless mind
2016-03-03 21:07:22 (UTC)

Death's Gift

Saturday will be a month since you left us. We are burning your things then... I am sorry it has taken me so long... it's been very hard to let go. Yesterday I found your grampa S and called... I know that had to be you, because I had no intention of contacting anybody. He feels really bad about how he acted when you called... seems to be a very distrusting man... I'm sure there are many reasons as to why he is but it is unfortunate that he missed the opportunity to meet you in this life because of that. I wrote him a letter so he knows a little about who you were. I also sent him a couple of pictures. I felt his pain and his shame... I told him I only wanted to let him know because I knew you had reached out to him and that I thought he deserved to know. He had mentioned that a couple of months ago, your dad was in a car accident and broke his leg, but has no idea where or how to contact him. It's just as well puppy... I am sure when and if he is to know it will happen. You always did do and get what you wanted on your time and based on how everything has been playing out, that hasn't changed. Back to your grampa... he has asked that we send him an invitation when we do your remembrance celebration next year. I said I would and it would be nice to see him and to be able to tell him what a great kid you were. I am hurting so badly puppy... I miss you so much!! Everything is so different and nothing can ever bring you back and that is a slow death. I have come to acceptance in regards to your leaving when you did. Becoming a donor was all part of the plan and I know that the people you have helped needed you at that time... it's just learning to live without you, your smile, your laughter, and even your annoying teasing and pranks... I miss our arguments, our talks, your music... your messes... I just miss you




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