hell on heels

Fuckity Fucks.
2016-02-11 00:10:30 (UTC)

He asked if I missed him..

I knew it this morning as I was getting ready for my, wait for it, third date with the newbie B. I thought of CT for a moment and I realized I care for his well being but I do not love him anymore. This is the first time in a long time where I think of an ex and they mean nothing to me. Of course he means something to me I spent 2 years with him, but no I no longer love him.

After the lunch date which seemed to go pretty well if I were to guess, although he hasn't texted me back yet...but I am hopefully over thinking it. I did kind of look like a psycho today with my hair all over the place and my face half put on...

I went to an appointment to check out the lady bits and I wish I would have remembered to get a breast exam, I can't be for certain, but I may have found a lump in my right breast.

My doc appt was right by CTs house so I drove by it on the way home ineviatably. He ended up texting me randomly I don't think he saw me, but who knows? He basically said he missed me and loved me still I personally don't feel that way so why in the actual fuck would I say that to him? He wanted to know if we could hang out I told him I didn't think it was a good idea and if we did it would have to be just as friends.... that didn't go over well of course. It's like he specifically picked a fight with me so he can be mad at me and get over me without hesitation.

So what did I do?

I gave it to him hardcore. and then hung up. I refuse to continuously play these games with him and I am sorry to say it, but I don't feel bad for him one bit. He was seeking a fight specifically just so he had a reason to not talk to me anymore... totally fine. fuck you then!




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