Ranmat

The Last Hours
2016-02-01 18:04:14 (UTC)

The job

I have to find another job.

In less than a year ago my whole I T team left the company. Mainly because of the move to come. The distance create hardships. And partly because the new company restricted access to many things.

When they left they left me in a position where I have to handle Soli everything at my particular site.

And I did. I took initiative. Because that's what I do. And no one told me not to.

Well I think one of the first things that rubbed me the wrong way I was when I took initiative to clean up the server room, to know what we had, to see what we needed, and to save me time because of the move what I was told to work on and by my boss for the new year to come, was to take more initiative and responsibility

That was so off that it was comedy.

Then there was the Casper incident. I had no access to it. I had it but I wasn't sure what changed. But after three months of emails with my boss CCed I still didn't have it. But the temp did.
Not the best for morale. Let alone they didn't make any sense. I can't support my Mac users if I didn't have it. My boss doesn't care if I can work or not?

Then the best to him that anybody could have received an offer from another company. This guy honestly was better than me. A little put in a counter offer. I was told that he was asking for more money than they were willing to give me. And then I was told his buyout was too high Bob had signed it and it was already set in stone. I did have another temp but at that time we weren't meshing as well. He's very shy and was a timid dated by the fact that Vy wasn't given an offer.

But he ended up proving great in the end. You just took him three months to freaking warm up.

We moved in September. Our lease was up and we had to be out of the building by October 31. We were behind schedule. So everything was rushed. In addition they didn't send any extra help. So it was just me and Kent.
We worked six days a week. There was no comp time given. The new place really wasn't ready for users to come and move in. Everyone said we did an excellent job. And we did. Two months later we still hadn't received recognition from our team or our bosses.

What they did do is send to people from another site to help us catch up. But I truly believe the wording they gave me in the wording they gave them was very different. I say this because of the attitude that the gentleman had when they came. It was more on the lines were coming out there to help you get your shit together. The shit they were referring to was the information that we never received regarding changes in how we were supposed to do things. And because these guys were my bosses hand picked people, what they reported back was what I'm not doing or can you believe she is doing this?

See , there was a change in how computers were being imaged. This was a change that affected every site. But my site was not informed of the change and now I'm being judged on what I wasn't doing because I wasn't informed.

This is when I'm starting to feel as if I am being treated unfairly.

And to work with the gentleman who were actually nice and I liked their personal characters, I had to change my outlook. They're coming out here to help me do my job. A job I have been doing for the last 11 years. I had to change my attitude because I didn't want to be negative and I didn't want to have my negativity reflect on them. Because they're in the middle. And I thought at the end of the day my site will be organized. I needed to take advantage of having four people instead of just two to support over 150 people.

This is also when I realized that my role in that company had officially changed. Only no one told me. My HR department didn't even know. So I'm being judged on the new role that I didn't even know I had or what it now did not consist of.

Can you see my now frustration? I'm not working with monkeys I'm working with donkeys Who think they are lions but practice like baboons.

In addition I am driving 100 miles a day and trying to get used to my two hour commute home.

So the holidays are now here. Thanksgiving I had a chance to just rest but I didn't realize how tired I was. I needed more time to rest. But you only got those two extra days. I asked if I can go on vacation once everybody else came back from vacation towards the end of January. My boss said that I could as long as the temp was going to be there. Into thousand and 15 I took three vacation days.

I was on call and worked through New Year's as I was hosting my cousins family. And of course it was busy.

So now my vacation is coming up in three weeks and guess what? Mike Temp puts in his two weeks notice. And I was genuinely happy for him. I knew he was going to get the job I gave him a great reference. But now I'm trying to see if I can get my vacation week moved up while he is still here. My boss asked if I can postpone my vacation until they got someone else in situate it. Which means I'm training Person number four and when will I see a vacation now?

My neck has an extreme crook in it that I've never had before and my lower back in the middle bottom is so tight. And because no one cares I understand that I have to be responsible for my own sanity and health. So I worked from home the last week Kent was there. Although I was still working I didn't have the commute it helped.

So now it's donning on me that they are going to try to not hire anyone. It's cheaper to Temp. They definitely do not care about the quality of the person that they have supporting. They are going to try to run me ragged because they feel that I am so loyal and I wouldn't leave.

What they don't know is that I am stuck. I'm stuck because I'm not certified. I continue to be's not certified because all I do is work. I don't have the time.

And then there's also my criminal record. In which so far three cases has been expunged. But I still have four more cases on my record. One not being handled. Another needing a president pardon. And one they're working on now.

I'm even at the stage where I don't have to stay in my field. I'm working on paying off to Bill so if my job decides that they want to give me a package because sometimes I do feel like they're trying to push me out, my bills are so low. Just rent and car note. I really do hope they do give me a package. Baby that's why you didn't want to give me my vacation. But if they think I'm just going to up and quit without a job to slide into, they have under estimated the strength of a single mom. If I go into work I just going to do my job and make sure everything is handled. I've actually gotten to the point where I don't give a shit. And as long as you do your work and stay pleasant, that take actually works.

So now I have another temp. A female. Very similar to me in the fact that she's a single mom, cute, Puerto Rican, Young in IT. But she's way smarter than me. I thought I was even possibly training my replacement. Until I figure out she's taking a lesser position so that she has less responsibility. Which is where I'm trying to get to.

The stress is not worth it
61,000 a year is not worth it.
And living in LA that's nothing.
I can't afford to move. We desperately need a three bedroom two bath.

When I have to concentrate on right now in this mess is how to cope and how to endure.




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