My Crazy, Amazing, Messed up Life
2016-02-01 09:52:43 (UTC)

The Failed Daughter

No matter how hard I try, how much dedication I have, I will never be good enough for my family.
Get better results in school, spend less money, be home quicker, get more shifts at work. There is always something that needs to be fixed.
And then when the problem is fixed, it turns into get into all of the extension classes, spend no money, be home an hour before curfew, why are you always working?
There is no way to win in the maze that is family expectations.
And at the end of the day, family just wants what's "best for me". But what is "best for me"? is it actually going to a fancy university to study some course that will lead to a high paying future career? Is it being home every Sunday for people to judge you? Is it letting you map out my life, just because yours didn't go the way you wanted it to?
But no matter how hard I try, how good my grades are, how much money I earn at the age of 14, I will NEVER be good enough for you.

I will forever be known as the failed first child.

I will forever be known as the failed daughter.


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