✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-01-31 06:07:14 (UTC)

You know I'm Gay, Right?


Dear Reader,


I felt anxious the entire way to the salon.

Because the last time the lady cut my hair,
I talked about graduating and starting my life,
and I felt good about being able to talk to her with ease.

This time, I'd have nothing to talk about it....
since I still don't work,
or go to school.


I always feel anxious though...
because I wear my hair very short,
and my closed minded family always remind me how much
they hate my hair.


So, as I waited, my brother got to go first.
And for a little bit, I thought they had forgotten about me.
Which made me semi-panic.

When it was finally my turn,
The conversation with her was a lot better than I thought it was going to be.
We laughed and stuff, and it was nice.

I would have enjoyed it more, except..
Grandma was shooting me dirty, hateful looks from where she sat in the waiting area.


She doesn't hide her disgust.
She does everything she can to make me feel ashamed for liking short haircuts.
She can't stand letting me feel good about something about myself when she doesn't like it....
Since she can't make me grow my hair back out,
She does this to spite me.


And then when we got into the car,
I tried keeping the conversation away from my hair...

I tried talking and lightening the mood.
She was already in a bad mood prior.
So you know, everyone else had to pay for it.

There's another person that cuts hair at the salon we go too,
And he's gay.
I'm awkward around him because I'm also gay, and I don't have any gay friends and I think he's awesome, and so naturally I'm an awkward taco.


I was talking about the girl, and how I always liked how she was so positive, and I made the mistake of saying that I liked the guy too, I was just awkward around him.

She's all "Why?"

I can't explain it to her.

"You know he's gay right?" She blurted. She said it so, condescendingly to me.

and so I said that I'm just awkward around certain people, and I named off a few.

And so she nodded and said something along the lines of:
"Yeah, you're just like that around people you're not like."


I'm like...
*Grumbles internally*


She was passive-aggressive about my hair,
and everything the entire ride home.

Sincerely,
ClosetedUnicorn




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