✯Sincerely, Me✯
☯LivingWithMyself☯
Why I Haven't Told You
Dear Nick,
If you’ve found this diary, I hope you read this entry.
Do you remember when I told you that I stopped writing physical diaries because I was afraid of my grandma finding them and reading them?
Because of the way she reacted that time she forced me to let her read one.
I’ve started writing here, and I haven’t told you... because honestly, a lot of these things I’ve already talked about with you... and the rest are things I just didn’t feel like sharing.
It’s not that I don’t trust you...
It would bother me so much to want to write something, but being afraid too because I knew you’d read it.
And a lot of the things I wanted to write...
Are things happening in my life that I know would upset you...
I’ve seen the way you react...
Like when you read my entry about dating Chaz... or when I told you about Alex...
or when I told you finally that I was still hung up over Josh...
I started this diary because I don’t want to upset you.
I want to be able to write about my love life.. or my sex life...
I want to be able to write about whether or not I’m depressed....
And not have to worry about it triggering something negative in you.
And I hate feeling that way...
Yes I do feel guilty about hiding this diary.
And maybe someday I’ll tell you about it...
And I hope it doesn’t upset you.
It’s just for now... It’s so relieving to finally be writing again..
Another reason why I started over, is because the old diary was just so childish and immature.
I wanted some separation. Like, my first diary is volume 1, and this is volume 2.
I’m sorry if this upsets you.
And, I don’t blame you if it does.
I just hope that you can understand.
Sincerely,
Appule
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