✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2016-01-30 07:09:42 (UTC)

Should I Talk To Him?


Dear Reader,


I was dumped nearly 2 years ago, and it crushed me.


Not because of why, but the way he did it.
And what he did afterward.

The relationship I was just in, and breaking it off...
Has changed the way I feel about my ex dumping me...

When I first started this diary...
I began writing the entire story out, but didn't finish.
I pulled it back up to work on it.. and I realized that after I read it the entire tone of it...
Doesn't match how I feel right now at all.

For some reason, the bitterness.. the anger...
It's barely there at all.


I'd say that's a good thing, but..

I feel like I need to talk to him.

I've always felt like we owed each other a conversation.


I never thought I'd get to this point really....


I'm not ready to talk to him just yet...
I'm not sure he'd even talk to me...
I'm not sure what good it will do...

I feel like I need to tell him...
I know I wasn't perfect.

I know now what was wrong with me then...
And I feel like he should know....

And the weird thing is..
Part of me doesn't want to make amends.
Part of me doesn't want to talk to him...

Part of me just wants to hold onto the hurt and the anger forever...
And I don't know how to begin to explain why.


I know it needs to be let go though...

I'm not ready to forgive him just yet...

And even after I do... doesn't mean it won't hurt anymore..


Am I strong enough to swallow my pride and let it go?

Sincerely,
WeNeedToTalk





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