Songbird System

Raven
2016-01-05 06:25:04 (UTC)

......My Life Just Loves to be Ironic...

So, just as I was snapping myself out of the 'worthless thing that nobody cares about' phase that I keep getting myself into...I learned that my new school forgot to enroll me and enrolled Morgan. Argh...if I'm not careful, I'm gonna be in that state. And I apparently get a small dose of Anorexia in that state too. Just fucking great.
Yeah, I guess this is how I talk usually. When I snapped out of all of my mental illnesses. Hopefully this side of me will appear more often in this diary for now on. Since my emotionally disturbed side is well...creepy. Like really, really creepy.
My voices could easily trigger my insecurities though. That sucks. Kinda sucks that nobody knows really how to deal with them or what they really are. I mean, if they were normal split personalities or something like that, I think they would've been gone by now or appeared more often in my early life. But, you know, this is part of the course of being a complicated person. So complicated that the 'Rin Smith' I show everybody is a fully developed character...I hate this 'Rin Smith' persona of mine, but it is like I'm addicted to her or something. I'm so complicated that I even confuse myself sometimes.
Back onto the irony of the situation, because even in this state, I'll rant about whatever is on my mind, it almost triggered the feelings again. But I know I can clear this misunderstanding up. And, even if I don't, that just means I get to miss more of school and be perfectly excused (since this is entirely the school's fault...Thank God).
But, you know what, I think I'll turn my life around somehow! I'll have to! For Pete's sake, this school even has a freaking barn with bunny rabbits!!! How can I not be at least a little excited?
This year...I'll defeat my demons. Because, no matter what now, I won't let my demons defeat me ever again!




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