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2015-12-31 21:01:01 (UTC)

Some Lists 'n Stuff


December 21, 2015 Thursday 5:01 PM

Feel like I should be doing something to commemorate my year or something. But, I mean, it hasn't really been a great year event-wise. I think I've learned a lot and discovered some kool music and I'm a happier person, but much of that happened when I was alone in my room, thinking.

Okay. I'll just write down some lists instead. I've written these lists down before, they've just grown, so here goes.


NAMES I LIKE:

J.D.
Lydia
Gus
Aubrey/Audrey
Daxton
Toofa (not really a name but still)
Rhiannon
Ashton
Oliver
Lera
Letha
Gwyneth
Myra
Cecil
Wren
Nylah
Adaline
Finn (Finnegan is the extended version for some people and I like that, it sounds like a fairy tale)
Boris
Malcolm
Sven
Evelyn
Frank
Halley
Dorian
Elise
Aster/Astir
Lester
Esther
Theodore
Henry


ALL TIME FAVORITE SONGS:

Head South by Modest Mouse
Ocean of Noise by Arcade Fire
There There by Radiohead
Carry The Zero by Built To Spill
Randy Described Eternity by Built To Spill
Willful Suspension of Disbelief by Modest Mouse


WORDS I LIKE (it's a long list so I'll be starting from most recent and stopping somewhere in the middle):

Prosaic
Mechanical
Vernacular
Yikes
Mimesis
Smidgen
Spindly
Fractal
Antithesis
Propagate
Perforate
Litany
Apogee
Torpor
Loam
Nullity
Woven
Disposition
Temperament
Suspension
Glibly
Struck
Senseless
Sleepy
Colloquial
Corporeal
Hiatus
Hazy
Foggy

(Okay this is half the list. I believe I've already listed everything else in previous entries. Words are so pretty...)


FAVORITE TV SHOWS:

Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Buffy wuz the shiiiiit. Anya was my fav though)

Scrubs (except for the last season. I am JD.)

The Office (no explanation needed. This show is flawless.)

Parks and Recreation (same as above)

That 70's Show (except for the last season. Eric is my favorite.)

Criminal Minds (I like how they make you feel pity for criminals instead of pure hatred and confusion. They really get into the minds and motives and it gets emotional and I like their quotes and just ugh)

Bob's Burgers (I am Gene, unfortunately)

Daredevil (the colors are what got me hooked. And Foggy.)

Twin Peaks (again, the colors. And Cooper.)

Rick and Morty (Colors! And Rick's an asshole. And it's just all around flAWLESS)

Gravity Falls (Weird shit! And Bill's a psychopath.)


FAVORITE MOVIES:

Donnie Darko (Did I tell you that Paul – nice kid with pretty eyes and crooked teeth – was my secret santa and he bought me a new copy of Donnie Darko since my old one broke???? AND CHOCOLATE PRETZELS I ACTUALLY WANT TO KISS HIM ON THE GOT-DANG CHEEK AHGHH. Well, I gave him a hug so I guess that's good enough haha. Especially since I don't think he really likes hugging people)

Kings of Summer (strong nostalgia. Feels like Bridge to Terabithia only I can watch it without wanting to die afterwards)

The Big Lebowski (I don't remember this movie! I just remember I loved it... Ugh....)

Fargo (ok I definitely remember this one haha)

Scott Pilgrim VS. the World (ahhhh)

Beetlejuice (!!!)

Clueless

Phantom of the Opera (my friend Drew loves this play. I've only ever seen the film version, though)

Beauty and the Beast (used to watch this on repeat as a child)

V for Vendetta (also one of Drew's loves)

Pleasantville (it was pleasant and made me feel nice)

Pulp Fiction (I've seen this movie 3 times)

Moonrise Kingdom (I considered omitting this movie because I don't like it that much – the main kids are sucky actors and the whole movie is very hipster and wierd – but I loooove the colors and I like the cop dude and I'm just a fan in general of beautiful scenery so??? Plus it was uplifting????? I already mentioned the colors but I just wanted to be more specific: I am very into the whole 50s/60s aesthetic Wes Anderson has going on there, all the bright greens and nasty yellows and pinks and stuff. Wuz good)

American Beauty (Another movie that seems a little forced at times but I think I liked the way they filmed it and I liked how it end and the kind of feeling it gave me)

Super 8 (!!! No complaints!)

Anastasia (another movie I watched on repeat as a child. Also had an obsession with her and her family's gruesome deaths, yep)

The Shining (colors, colors, colors, colors)

Nacho Libre (childhood favorite of mine)

Django Unchained (Jesus christ I love the cotton field scene. It's all just something really beautiful. COlors just as violent as the movie itself. Thank you Jamie Fox, thank you Quentin Tarantino)

Rango (idk I just liked the story and the main character and the setting ya know)

Hector and the Search For Happiness (small movie but I listed it as my favorite because of how depressing it got at times and I think I found it funny idk. Plus it reminded me a bit of Idiot Abroad)

Coraline (AHHH THIS IS A HORRIFYING MOVIE I LOVE IT)

The Madness of King George (watched this for APUSH extra credit and kinda ended up loving it. My teacher said it was kind of slow and dry or something but I really liked it)


QUOTES:

"They who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night." -Edgar Allan Poe, Eleonora

"I do a lot of things with my eyebrows." -Liv, guest starring a suggestive waggle from said eyebrows

"This is the kind of music a pirate would sing, an artistic pirate who didn't really fit in with all the other pirates, but they liked the way he sang and played guitar so they kept him around. I wish I was that pirate..." -Youtube user TEd, commenting on "Oh Comely" by Neutral Milk Hotel

"Do NOT, under any circumstances, watch this video while you are stoned. Your brain will bleed as you begin to relate how the Triforce was actually related to aliens that visited from some planet only Kurt Vonnegut could have dreamed up and left instructions on how to build the pyramids of Giza, which, obviously, correspond perfectly to the three stars in Orion's Belt." -Youtube user Ryan Smith, commenting on video titled "Doodling in Math Class: DRAGONS" by Vi Hart

"There is a crack in everything. That's how the light gets in." - Leonard Cohen

"I am hard on myself. But isn't it better to be honest about these things before someone else can use them against you? Before someone else can break your heart? Isn't it better to break it yourself?" - Stephanie Perkins

"They walked along, two continents of experience and feeling, unable to communicate." - Lord of the Flies by William Golding (!!!)

(I had more quotes from Lord of the Flies but they're all underlines in my copy of the book which I left at home)

"Yes. Yes. Yes. I hear. Your silence is loud." - Anne Sexton

"In other languages
you are beautiful – mort, muerto – I wish
I spoke moon, I wish the bottom of the ocean
were sitting in that chair playing cards
and noticing how famous you are
on my cell phone – picture of your eyes
guarding your nose and the fire
you set by walking, picture of dawn
getting up early to enthrall your skin – what I hate
about stars is they’re not those candles
that make a joke of cake, that you blow on
and they die and come back, and you,
you’re not those candles either, how often I realize
I’m not breathing, to be like you
or just afraid to move at all, a lung
or finger, is it time already
for inventory, a mountain, I have three
of those, a bag of hair, box of ashes, if you
were a cigarette I’d be cancer, if you
were a leaf, you were a leaf, every leaf, as far
as this tree can say" - Bob Hicok

"I was always ashamed to take. So I gave. It was not a virtue. It was a disguise." - Anais Nin

"I love you as certain dark things are meant to be loved, in secret, in between the shadow and the soul." - Pablo Neruda

"Try to imagine a life without timekeeping. You probably can’t. You know the month, the year, the day of the week. There is a clock on your wall or the dashboard of your car. You have a schedule, a calendar, a time for dinner or a movie. Yet all around you, timekeeping is ignored. Birds are not late. A dog does not check its watch. Deer do not fret over passing birthdays. an alone measures time. Man alone chimes the hour. And, because of this, man alone suffers a paralyzing fear that no other creature endures. A fear of time running out." - Mitch Albom

"I carry your heart with me (I carry it in my heart)I am never without it (anywhere
I go you go,my dear; and whatever is done by only me is your doing,my darling)
I fear no fate (for you are my fate,my sweet)I want no world (for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)" - E.E. Cummings

"So much of her time spent like this: dreaming up things to say and never quite saying them." - Colum McCann

"How carelessly God hummed us whole
with such pronounced
holes
for lungs
How hollow
we are." - Eugenia Leigh

"My dear,
Find what you love and let it kill you.
Let it drain you of your all. Let it cling onto your back and weigh you down into eventual nothingness.
Let it kill you and let it devour your remains.
For all things will kill you, both slowly and fastly, but it’s much better to be killed by a lover.
~ Falsely yours" Charles Bukowski

"We only obsess over relationships that feel unfinished."

"I want to be with you
it is as simple,
and as complicated as that." - Charles Bukowski

"Come back! Even as a shadow, even as a dream." - Euripides

"If you want to learn what someone fears losing, watch what they photograph."

"If a person has ugly thoughts, it begins to show on the face. And when that person has ugly thoughts every day, every week, every year, the face gets uglier and uglier until it gets so ugly you can hardly bear to look at it.
A person who has good thoughts cannot ever be ugly. You can have a wonky nose and a crooked mouth and a double chin and stick-out teeth, but if you have good thoughts they will shine out of your face like sunbeams and you will always look lovely."

ANDDDDD HERE'S MY FAVORITE.

"She was desperate and she was choosey at the same time
and, in a way, beautiful but she didn't have quite
enough going for her to become what
she imagined herself to be." - Charles Bukowski (he breaks my heart)


FAVORITE TYPES OF CHARACTERS (not in order of how much I like them):

1. The asshole ones who are all gooey inside but have a hard time showing it (ex: Doctor Cox, Shawn Spencer, Ron Swanson, Rick Sanchez, etc.)

2. The smart ones who figure things out using books (ex: Hermione Granger, Willow from Buffy, Princess Belle, etc.)

3. The slightly ditsy best friends who feel like they're good for nothing but are actually incredibly funny and smart (ex: Ron Weasley, Xander from Buffy, Foggy Nelson, Morty Smith, Gus from Psych, etc.)

4. The I-Didn't-Ask-To-Be-a-Hero characters who are constantly tormented and feel like everyone around them dies and it's their fault. It's not really but they're dumb and compassionate. Oh, they're also unusually powerful. Hence the hero thing (ex. Buffy, Harry Potter, Matt Murdoch, etc.)


FAVORITE BOOKS:

Chaos Walking Trilogy by Patrick Ness
Harry Potter series by J.K. Rowling
Slaughterhouse-Five by Kurt Vonnegut
Percy Jackson series by Rick Riordan
Catcher in the Rye by J.D. Salinger
John Dies at the End by David Wong
When You Reach Me by Rebecca Stead
Lord of the Flies by William Golding

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OKAYYYY that's all for now. It's almost midnight in New York. I'm going to complain about family in the next entry so I can start off the year (California tyme) nicely.

In order to do THAT, I gotta talk about how phony my aunt is.

Toodles.

PS:

UGH CAROLINE JUST LEFT ME TO GO HANG OUT WITH HER FRIEND. THIS NEW YEARS IS THE WORST. AT LEAST LAST YEAR I WAS... SOMEWHERE. I THINK. I'LL CHECK AFTER I POST THIS.

I hate that disappointment you feel when something is super, duper anticlimactic. Yep. THaaat's tonight.


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