Rico628

Palm Diary
2015-12-21 09:02:20 (UTC)

Uncertainties (Getting ahead of myself)

So after my night out with my coworkers I have been floating on cloud nine.

I still have my doubts, but they don't keep my from riding! I keep wondering if my crush only told me that he'd see me just to save my face in front everyone else. Or that maybe he just thinks of me a really cool FRIEND. I think it's still way to early in the game to be friend zoned so I hope not.

But what if his promise is everything I think it is? I remember talking to the other guy and he told me that he had no time for a relationship. No distractions. I appreciate his honesty. Now I won't have to hate him for wasting time never spent. But now that I'm looking at my crush the other guy seems...JEALOUS? I understood that NO time would be made for me. So did he really expect me to wait around for him while he finished his degrees in another two years?

My crush lives almost half a world away from me and he, with all of his endless meetings, tutoring sessions and events, promised to still make time to see me. Even if it's just for 20 minutes.

And despite all the other I believe he'll come through. When I invited him out he said he'd have to leave early, but he wound up staying the entire time.




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