✯Sincerely, Me✯

☯LivingWithMyself☯
2015-12-28 03:00:00 (UTC)

A Good Reason


Dear Reader,

I've had a few ideas for this entry....
like my family practically being hoarders...
needing a desk...
all the horrible sleepovers I had as a kid, but something else came up.
My new friend made me think of it.


Something I know I need to work on, is letting go of the past.


There's a quote that I try to keep in mind when life just isn't fair.

Change is the only constant.

That's the nature of the world we live in.

Change impacts me in very negative ways.
It's very hard for me to cope and to adapt to changes both big and small.

A change that I think most people struggle with, is when we lose people we love... because they die, or because you grow apart.

Loss is what brought me to this website four years ago, when I was writing in my old diary.

In that amount of time, I've lost so many people.


I try to keep that quote close...
but it doesn't prevent from feeling so bitter towards the ones that hurt me....


I dream of a life, far away from here.
In my own house. With a job that I love.
Surrounded by people that love me for me....

I want to know what if feels like to be in a room full of people who care about me because they want too, not because they feel like they have too, like my family.

But how on Earth does someone like me, get to that point?

All I do is look toward the past constantly wishing I could change it, instead of looking forward...

I'm hung up on people that didn't care about me enough... or circumstances threw us apart..

I'm surrounded by people that are supposed to love me unconditionally, but try to change me.

Losing people is never easy...
and I try to believe that it happens for a reason.
A good reason.

Sincerely,
LoneWolf





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