I keep thinking how we almost made it
I keep thinking that there's something wrong.
It's nothing specific, it's not like I can point it out or anything.
But there's something off.
Something is not quite the same as it used to be, and I don't know if it's me or if it's him. Or maybe it's both.
I just want everything to go back. Last year I was the happiest I'd ever been in my life and I keep trying to bring it back.
But I can't, I can't and I'm trying so so so hard and I can't bring it back.
Nothing's the same and I'm so sad.
Everything's hopeless, we're going to drift apart and in another year I'll be too scared to talk to him, I told him it would happen and he wouldn't believe me, but it always does, this always always always without fail happens.
I'm counting down the days.
I don't know what's gone wrong. Everything was going so well, but something's happened and everything's wrong oh god everything is so wrong.
How much longer do I have?