Who the hell am I to give opinions
My friend is going thru a divorce. She is a core friend of mine and she's been my friend for over 10 years now. Her husband is a fuck up. He is doing very similar things that my ex did. Lie, cheat, and whatever else that usually goes with that kind of behavior.
Well, I comforted my friend. Told her that these type of people have no regards for anyone but themselves. Who they hurt and the damage they do is irrelevant to them. Do not try to figure them out because people like that are narcissist and it's a waste of time to try to fix them.
I think telling her about that part was ok. I added others things that I'm not so proud of. You see, when you go thru this kind of crap, you become so fucking jaded. You no longer look for hope of finding someone nice that you hope to meet. You end up settling and going thru the motions of day-to-day activities.
I was ashamed to tell her some of my suggestions. I was wrong and my suggestions were not right. It's coming from a person that has been so fucked up, the right thing to do is no longer in my heart. What's left of it anyway.
Since my divorce, I've become an empty soul. The thing is that I shouldn't have the right or gaul to suggest how my friend should deal with her pending divorce. I was wrong. I am nobody. Whatever good was in me died from my experience with me ex. I'm alone not because I lost my game. It's because I became what I am now. A soulless, lifeless person that just happen to be alive.
I go thru my days trying to make the most of it but it's just a waste of time. No real effort to have a life. Just trying to get to the end of the day. Then I start all over again. I guess my divorce damaged me more than I thought. I guess I never really recovered and what is left is just a shell.
So I think this is how it's going to be for a long ass time. So be it. I shed no tear. I go thru the motion until my soul gives in and finally gives up.
I just feel bad for my friend. Spoke to her and told her that I was wrong and don't try to copy of follow my lead, nor listen to my input. I'm full of crap and have no right to bring anyone else down to my shitty level in life.
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