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2015-10-15 19:38:40 (UTC)

Thee Uknown

Its so many lows and highs and highs and low but I am just going through the motion. I am going to take control over my life. I love Damien but I am going to loose my mind if I continue trying to figure this thing out.
From friends, family and even him I have heard "Leave him alone", "Move on", "Give him space", "Pray, "He needs help", "He doesn't love you" , "Just be Friends, etc"...I let all that get the best of me. To many emotions clouding my judgment. I am bitter, jealous, no patience, easily angered and have gone into a depression state. That is not the life I am called to live.

I am tired of repeating myself. It is time for a change. My life can not be all about Damien. I have to start enjoying life and taking control of my mind and thoughts.

Damien will be ok. As much as it hurts Friends we will be for now. I cant worry or stress, checking his phone etc. It may take awhile for things to get back right if at all but I got to be comfortable with whatever decision is and know it was ruled by God. Today.......Now




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